Ascension and the Journey Home

9 THE CIRCLE OF LIGHT Part 1 of 2

At the center core of truth, where truth becomes a power which changes your life, literally changing your reality, is the circle of light. Moving into the center of that circle of light is your rebirth. Coming into that light means you perceive that this reality is literally what you perceive it to be.

Prior to that moment, you are standing outside the circle, in the darkness. What you experience is interpreted from the darkness, not from the light. Even though the light is shining out from the circle and exposing this to you, your sense of perception is that you are here in life and God is way out there. The doctrine and dogma of many religions are within the darkness, the illusion, the lie. You are not born only of the animal body, but you are born an eternal entity. You were known and lived before the foundations of this world were laid, before you were formed in the womb. You existed before creation. You are a part of God, the gleam of love in God's eye. "Let there be light" was the projection of the holographic reality with space for expansion, timed so that everything has reference points and meaning.

Then came the organic process of the animal form until at a certain point the spirit of man is breathed into the clay, the body of the animal. The breathing of life into the body, that which is biologically created, the animal, formed the host for God's children, his prodigies of eternity. From there, the children entered into life experiences, affecting the genetic code of the animal and intervening in the animal's behavior, patterns and instincts. In this symbiotic relationship, you still carry certain animal characteristics in your glands, body, and in instincts. You have the base instinct, which is fear, the survival instinct of a predator, as this precious being.

It is not that you are here and God is out there. God created a void and filled it with an illusion, the hologram. Just as the projection of a hologram is not real, neither is this reality. But in your symbiotic relationship with the animal and its base instincts for survival, in that combination of spirit and animal creating a mental body, a thinking process, a sense of perception, the purpose behind this reality is born; for you to individuate and move with the animal's sense of perception into eternity.

To move into the circle of light is to understand the principle behind this reality instead of perceiving it only from the human animal's view point. The animal may want to go wash the dishes or wax the car. But maintaining an awareness of the symbiotic relationship gives you a sense that you are an eternal entity that likes to keep his car polished and keep the dishes done. Because of the nesting instincts, or the social order of others around you, you choose to do that. You can spend years in religions and philosophies, in the study of God and the light, go to the altar and say you know you are a child of God, yet never comprehend the truth of that or really be viewing reality from the reasonable sense of perception. You may still be perceiving and justifying everything through the eyes of the human animal and seeing only the illusion.

Moving into the light of truth, moving into the light of perception as God's child, which unfolds universes and kingdoms beyond the imagination, is an act of your own free will. But how do you move? How do you motivate yourself? What is your position in this creation? What are the rules? How much are you responsible for the creation of the pain, sickness, sorrows, sufferings, headaches, an empty checkbook, the corruption of politics in government? How responsible are you? You are greatly responsible. Literally, you are as responsible as you choose to be, because reality is subjective. This reality is an illusion that is attentive to the host animal, the human, in its symbiotic relationship with the eternal spirit. That spirit is in mutual agreement with all the other participants in this reality. For example, we all agree that the sun rises in the morning, sets at night, we perceive this as a day.

How can you move into the sense of perception from within the circle of light? By simply stepping into the light. You may say, "I am a child of God," but when you step into the light of that sense of perception, you know you are an eternal entity only having an in-body experience. How can you tell if you are really inside the circle? Are you going by the animal instinct which is comfortable hiding in the darkness so that it doesn't have to change its patterns? One might read their experience as totally crazy, well then, your getting closer to the truth. The truth is much more than the human animal can comprehend. Understand your human animal is use to dying to get there. The animal perceives stepping outside its safe perimeters it places around itself as an endangerment to its mortal being. Its social, cultural, interpersonal relationship with its world and surroundings. The animal instinct reacts to these as possible threat or death of identity. Understanding the magnitude of the psychological trauma you will be passing yourself though, be gentle and patient with your heathy progress as you elect to deal with the rationalization of changing perception of what is the real nature of time and space and your own existence. That is a time of gentle hands with yourself, both human animal and eternal spirit. That animal has a sense of perception of reality that is based on what it perceives reality to be and it conducts itself accordingly.

Your sense of perception is literally creating your reality. It determines your subconscious choices and decisions to marry, to be in an abusive relationship, get a divorce, marry someone else that will be abusive or have that tendency, all due to a core problem with interpersonal relationship skills. Until you challenge it, your interpretation of love is based on your life experiences. If when you were little, Mommy and Daddy said "I love you" but they beat you constantly, your interpretation of love is "hit me." Interrelationship problems come from a false interpretation or a personal interpretation of reality, and the decisions that you make subconsciously create the reality you experience.

We have core emotional issues and personal views, and these affect our choices. Now you are going to move from the darkness into the light. When we step into the light, we may then turn and perceive life as what it is, perceive it in its beauty, its mercy, its forgiveness. Your sense of life, what you think reality is, and all the experiences you have had, need to be re-evaluated.

When you step into the light, turn around and begin the process of staying in the light, when your animal knows that it's not going to die after all. The whole purpose in life is to gain a personal sense of perception. So when we step into the light, the animal sees that it's sense of perception is going to live forever. Then it will acclimate, shift its perception, and begin to fear the darkness instead of the light. When you move into the light, you perceive the animal and the good it has done. You understand that your animal is helping you perceive the light by maintaining its heart beat even when it is close to what it thinks is the door of death.

In the center of the circle of light, everything must be re- interpreted so that you will not be sidetracked, so that you can maintain yourself in the light. The animal now tries to help you. It makes you have feelings, makes you want to go to the light, wants you to stay in your truer sense of perception, because it is now secure there. Standing inside the light, you have the sense of perception of this reality from within the light is a divide work in progress.

In the circle of light, you can begin to understand the art and music of God, His children and their lives. This is His poetry. For God isn't the only one creating. You are co-creating with Him. We perceive that science can do wondrous things, so we create a wondrous reality. We create a vast technology with limitless possibilities. And when science gets as far as it can go, and comes to the door of physical reality in order to deal with something beyond this physical reality, it arrives at quantum physics. It finds the edge of the hologram where the rules of physics don't apply. On the subatomic level, the subatomic particles of any physical construction are so far apart, to view them is like looking at the universe and the distance between stars. Then testing that reality, science finds that it doesn't necessarily work by the laws of physics, that there can be more than one object in the same space at the same time. It discovers the walls of the hologram and finds out that the observer influences the outcome of any measurement taken. It is thought that is measured. The equipment will register differently depending upon what the observer wants to see. If you want to see particles, then the equipment will register them. If you want to see waves, then the equipment will register waves. Three people measuring the same subatomic area will obtain three different results. One could find particles, one could find waves, and one could find a beam. Science has gone to the door and found that reality is subjective.

To stand as an individual within the light is to perceive life as an in-body experience. And all the experiences you have had through all your lifetimes with all the different complexities, with all the probable realities and subjective realities, and all the day-dreams and visions, hopes and aspirations, make you different from all others, give you a personal identity, gives you a different sense of perception from God. So then you can turn, love God and be loved by God as his child. You become His child grown up. In the darkness, you perceive yourself as small, insignificant, and this earth as a single grain in an endless, infinite sea. But the truth is that the perception of the eternal being is far more vast than the sea. To have a personal, unique, eternal identity and take that identity into the light before physical death occurs, is a type of death itself. It is the death of the old perception and a life transformation. The animal becomes immortal. Its identity is sealed, all the lifetimes coming together to create a different sense of perception, knowing the pain and suffering of miscarriages, heartaches and disappointments, sorrows, joys and laughter. That is who you are.

Once the animal and the mental/spiritual parts are joined, they are very efficient. What happens is that as you stand in the light, the animal fights to survive. It coaxes the mental to give you the answers to whatever questions may arise in your consciousness. When you step into the light, you realize that you choose the experiences you have had to help other people, to be understanding, to be compassionate, to understand their pains, their frustrations. There is a purpose even in hanging on to misconceptions, because then you know how hanging on to that may destroy things.

You are in the animal body, and the animal can be become dominant. You can control it or allow it to control you. You are in a body and reality you don't understand. You don't know what questions to ask. In each life there is a reason for the experiences you have. These are choices and decisions you make. You agree and you experience, even though it seems against your will. It is an agreement you have, which has purpose you may never fully perceive while here in the body.

You came here to learn. Every breath you take, with the animal struggling to make sure you take the next one, even while you are not conscious of it, every heart beat, whether you are suffering or laughing, is eternally valuable as a contribution to your sense of perception -- king or beggar, healer or killer, priest or madman. All of life is a sense of personal experience that becomes a part of your eternal identity. So it is an identity that will be diverse and multi-faceted. The great dream time, to understand the vast spectrum of possibilities, you may experience them. And you don't quit creating the negative elements until you truly perceive that you are creating them.

The center of the circle of light reveals the purpose of the lie. If God were to make you love Him, then He could not experience you loving Him of your own free will. So you have this reality, this subjective experience -- to form a personal, individualized, eternal identity, here on the earth plane you can and do that. Here, in the subjective reality, if you don't have a mutual interpretation of love, then none exists in your perception. Love is a gift we give each other, and beating, hitting, forcing and wanting it, struggling and fighting for it will not get it for you. In that search for love, all the negative things we've done, the pain, evil, tears, hatred, loss, disease -- all the things we call evil, are really perfect, a description of a crying soul crying for love. They give definition and a personal identity to us as eternal entities, which make us separate from God in our perception, yet part of God, the child and the Father together. The child comes to God, the Father, of its own free will, loves God and also loves itself.

The lie to see through is that you are born here and all you have in this lifetime is some hope you will have something more after you die. When the animal dominates, it sees only the life it is experiencing. The eternal entity sees the eternal. Since you have a free will where the animal and the eternal come together, you choose and decide how you perceive reality. You influence the incarnational pattern you choose. When you look through the eyes of the eternal being, you can choose from the insight and knowledge gained from all your lifetimes, with a sense of perception and personal identity separate from God. You, then, solve the equation "to love and to be loved".

This is all just temporary, both the bad and the good, for you to make choices and decisions, to find out who you are, what you like, what you don't like. The choices and decisions, the bad ones, the ones you are ashamed of, and the experiences you feel hurt about because someone else did something to you, they don't really matter. There is no good or bad when you are in your eternal Home. There is no good and evil in eternity. That is the illusion, your teacher in the experience of life at the lower level, where light slows to energy, and energy slows to matter, where the dominion of a lie, a hologram, is created. Perceiving from within the light of truth, you understand that you are experiencing an illusion. If it is an illusion, then it is not real. Although in eternity it doesn't exist, it has eternal effects. It has given you a sense of personal identity, a sense of perception, so that you can be different from any other.

It may appear as though there are those born who don't have a choice, because the situation never provides them the opportunity to make choices and decisions to be wealthy, healthy, happy and wise. Being denied those things marks the eternal entity, contributing to the development of the personal identity. The human can make decisions that come to a dead end and make mistakes. But the process will be safely guarded by the Creator. You do not mess up in eternity. When you visit one another in eternity, drawn together by your different and interesting senses of perception, you will share your eternal Homes with each other. You will introduce yourselves, share the worlds that attracted you, all the facets of your personal experiences, your eternal treasures.

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Last Change December 12, 1995